i was in a dilemma about friday's training leave. i was going to attend a course.
BUT, i knew no one.
i probably knew some people from MOT who were going with me but i wasnt cooked with any of them.
pratically, i considered myself as going alone, as a loner.
i was so emo.

i tend to have alot of these feelings; dont know why.
LOL. maybe coz i really love hiding in my comfort shell.
or maybe im really worrying too much all the time.
i am not that quiet after some talking but i cant help feeling that i am being such a mouse, ALWAYs.

now, i think i know why............................

ONE advice: dont every discourage your child in front of a crowd.

when i was a kid, i tend to hide alot.
during chinese new year, i would usually be at my grands. but whenever a crowd comes over, i would run into my uncle's room and pretend to watch tv inside there.
my aunty and dad would then proclaim to the people saying why we ( my bro and sis are my followers) always want to hide inside, we should come out and say hi.... bla bla bla.
and this happens like EVERY year.
i think i grew into the shy and quiet person as what they have advertised my relatives as.
i really hate socialising.
this is one event which i can clearly remember.
i guess there should be more events like these which i cannot make up of now which induced my hiding tendency since a young age.

back to friday.
it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be
i should really laugh it out.
i was worrying way too much!!!
the other 2 guys from MOT were nice, and we got along
i really should be thankful coz i had their company for lunch as well.
i brought a book as my lunch company. but it turned out i dint need that book at all. LOL

i always tell BF that i will be going this place alone.. bla bla bla..
and he never seems to show the kinda concern that i expect him too...
i do get upset, but i think he knows that i am always worrying way too much and that's probably why i dont get the concern i am expecting to get.
i am an idiot, who worrys too much.
coz in the end, i dont always end up alone.
HAHAHAHA.

we had cravings for steamboat!
and of coz, we went to satisfy our stomach
if not, i will keep grumbling at his ear...lol
u see, i can diet on wk days, but i always look for food during wk ends =C

sat, we popped over 'tian tian xiao chu @ bugis' for our early dinner.
dint snap any pics during our eating
but serioulsy, at first look, i dint fancy that place
BF did warn me but i dint expect it to be so bad. LOL
but one thing i have to praise comment is that their soup bases are really yummy.
its the 1st time where i really loved a steamboat's soup (besides homemade ones)
we had 3 kinds of soups: corn soup, tom yam & herbal soup
thumbs up for all 3!

the boo hoo: no service standard.
the hygiene there doesnt really look that great but i guess its popular for its food coz many tables were already reserved when we went over at 4pm+
we wanted to try the bbq, and this was only available if we sat outside + add another $3/ person
we agreed, however, we were told that the bbq items wld only be available at abt 530pm
no problem~~
we ate our steamboat items 1st
but 530pm, still no sign of the bbq items, asked the waiter, he said shld be ready soon.
6pm, still not ready.
our stomachs were already reaching end point.
615pm, they brought out 1 serving to our table.
too late, we decided to cancel the BBQ already.
see, really no standard.
its probably the MIC standard.

i really missed jalan kayu's kosong since the last time we ate it!
can u imagine how much i so wanted to have a bite of the prata to reminiscence its taste this week when one of my staff bought roti prata for 10am tea!! i controlled myself......

BF was nice, as always to my food demands. lol
he said okay, lets go there on sunday! :))
i had a hearty meal this evening and i am still feeling so full.

i feel so guilty eating so much.
i should go for a run tmr morning, if i am able to pull myself out of bed early!